I’m feeling so fucking hyper right now and I don’t even know why.
and once again
the pleasure shackles
me. I taste the tears so sweet
and indulge in it’s pain and fantasy.
The sun may set
And the night may fall
But my love for you
Will conquer it all
- What other people think: Oh, it's nothing. They're gonna gain inspiration later and continue on writing BLAHBLAHBLAH.
- What writers think: OMFG. I'm just a big chunk of useless meat that exists in this world for nothing. I just wanna like, die. Kill me now. KILL ME NOW. Can you just?! *GETS A DAGGER* Please stab me with this and use my blood to water the plants so my life can have sense. Kill me please! THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING.
"I’m sorry. I’m sorry." he said. "Things have gone out of hand." he continued then stormed out. I was left there, crying over things that I knew from the start would be bad when it backfires.
"Hell!" I shouted out of frustration. I knew it from the start, but I still followed my heart. Now we’re stuck in abyss and we cannot find a way out. I stood up and walked straight to my cabinet. I searched for the thing that I treasured and kept for years.
I looked at it, it was still handsome. A little cold due to the weather. I stroked it a couple of times before finally reaching to my final decision. It won’t hurt. It won’t hurt. I kept telling myself.
It was already snowing outside, it’s the 24th of December. I knew he would come back for me but, I already decided.
I loaded the gun and placed it inside my mouth.
I can see that you’re moving forward already and forgetting the bad memories that 2012 brought you. Well, it’s a good thing. Maybe leaving your blog won’t hurt but I know that you will surely miss the people you became acquainted with. I know I’m not in the shoe to tell you that but you always had a choice. Just be sure to choose the right option. Think about it first, okay? Use those lessons that you learned from the past year to be successful in everything you do. Don’t forget to pray and always believe in the Lord. I’m gonna miss you!
The new YOU.